Wow, great job and isn't it nice to see our own progress. I think we all sometimes forget that our Ts are human and make mistakes. We just take them personally. He sounds like a really good T and I'm sure that he can take care of himself. I hope tomorrow goes well.Read More...

(((newtothis))) Great job! I know how hard that first conversation (and well, many after) can be!Read More...

Ok - I'll try. 1. A Gardenia - I just love the smell. It is so peaceful. I love the look of the beautiful white flower against the deep dark green leaves. 2. I've always said I would be a bird but I really think I'd like to me a wild mustang running free through the wild west. 3. My book, Hmmm... Finally free 4, If I ruled the world, there would be stronger punishments for criminals. The money in this country, would stay in this country. Perhaps then we would be able to care for our own...Read More...

Hey Ladygrey. Aye the anonymity is something I like a lot. Privacy is a very big thing too. Exposure is threatening. Hmm sometimes I delete things too. I've been thinking of deleting a few replies on here where my identity is shown, but I'm resting assured that I'm conspicuous enough as it is!Read More...

Thanks FMN! I've made three: the brown monkey with the white face, a white monkey with a brown face (the other monkey's sock "twin," but she looks more like a sheep) and the kitty cat posted in the chit chat section. I started making them at the beginning of the month for the purpose of giving T an anniversary gift. I found it to be a good focused task I could do in order to take my mind off stuff. It gives me a lot of satisfaction to do something where there is a finished product.Read More...

Nada & Happy Girl, Thank you for reading them - glad you liked them. Yes.. I rather liked the sheep too, he was lots of fun to drawRead More...

((((((((Jd))))) I just wanted to send some hugs your way...I am so sorry about what was done to you, and I hope that you will be able to find a church where the people are accepting and respectful, and know how to share real love with one another. You deserve to feel comforted and cared for...prayers, that you will find a really beautiful place that fills your heart and soul with God's love and comfort. I wish I could bring you to church with me- nobody is allowed to kick anyone out of...Read More...

Somedays: well done for you darl, its so nice that she helped out and supported you. I too believe I had BPD. What you said about the over-reaction about your childT. I had practically the same reaction of the thought of having to leave to go to Uni. Suicidal, thinking of ways to die, started starving myself, panic attacks, constant crying, cutted a few times and was in bed for 1 week feeling absolutely terrible. I ended up cancelling University. She could see through it. I felt so...Read More...

Thank you so much for all the feedback and support. My mood has plummeted the past few days. All sorts of negative thoughts and impulses are raging inside me. I've had almost 4 months to work on this goodbye, but I don't feel ready. So much of my therapy the last 4 months have been directed at some big issues and my falling apart about him leaving. I don't have anyone irl to tell about this. Again, thank you all so much. This is a great place and I hope to become more involved with the...Read More...

Yeah, Liese...it seems so impossible sometimes, doesn't it? Luckily, I am not faced with the full brunt of it. T couldn't do a full double tonight. He had to change it last minute due to a calendaring error, so I will probably get 1:15 to 1:30. It doesn't sound like Wednesday was open. He is offering me an extra long Friday at his other office, unfortunately during the day (which is really hard for me for very specific reasons)...but he kindly informed me that it was working out, because he...Read More...

Thanks (((Draggers))) (((AG))) (((Beebs)))Read More...

(((((((draggers)))))) I hope you will be in a better space soon, sweetheart...love to you- just take care of you right now and come back to us when you feel able. BeebsRead More...

I have a growing list of Spiritual Directors and T's too! The latest is T6, when we first met it was like we had a psychic connection for a while because I knew things about the place and him that I couldn't have known and he seemed to know a couple of things about me which he couldn't possibly have done without more contact. He did say he felt we had a connection, though that may be a technique some use, who knows. Anyway, I have gotten further with this one in a few sessions than I ever...Read More...

AG! Brilliant. Just brilliant. LOVE the explanation of transference. It makes perfect sense to me...especially the starving dog being thrown steak. That's me! HG--I totally saw my transference quickly transfer onto three different people in a period of 4 years. First it was my OB/GYN. I was totally obsessed. Then it was a colleague, and now it's T. I seem to only feel it strongly towards ONE person at a time. But, as AG said--I am so glad it is with T now so I can figure all of it out. PHEW!Read More...

UV, This article comes at a very appropriate time for me and has given me much food for thought. Thanks!Read More...

It was brought on by financial problems. I have pinpointed the exact problem. I am looking for a technique or some advice on what to expect when this happens. Can anyone help with this? My sympathetic nerve is stuck on.Read More...

Thanks, happy to be here, most relieved to find this forum indeed : ) Well she was T5, T6 is male and thankfully doesn't notice what I wear and lets me come in my jeans. Therapy is hard enough as it is without having to try to make myself look nice too when I am in pain. Body work? what is body work?Read More...

Oh AG. I'm going to have a little tantrum now. I was beginning to get somewhere with an attachment to oldT and maybe we could have worked through some of these feelings and got to the bottom of them but I'm not allowed to see her anymore and IT'S NOT FAIR. To think that I need to start all over again and find a new attachment figure. Yikes. I think finding someone who works with attachment would be very helpful. Your T sounds great. But then so do you AG. You two really deserve each other.Read More...

Aren't insights and breakthroughs just the best thing NDRead More...

((((INCOGNITO))))) Just glad that you were able to tell T something that has been hard for you and that you don't feel stuck anymore. xoxoxo LieseRead More...

IN a long post session email to my T I put on paper things that I was afraid to say about what I want to get out of therapy and what I want from him. I used some of the words that some of you had already used. Why change it when it already works? Here are my thoughts: What I Learned/Am Learning from Therapy 1. I'm learning that I am not the person I was always afraid I was. 2. I learned that even though it looked like abandonment and felt like abandonment, you did not abandon me. 3. I'm...Read More...

Hi STRM, I just finished reading the article. I liked it. I think the models it presents for understanding our experiences of positive and negative affects seem potentially very valuable. I found myself considering some of my own bouts of depression in new ways, based on the ideas presented in the article. For instance, when I was growing up, most anything I really liked was considered suspect by my parents, so the positive affect of "interest-excitement" was constantly being interrupted.Read More...

I have watched a lot of The Simpsons lately. The Guardian is waiting for me to read it. I don't read it out of any real interest. It is mostly out of boredom. Our kitchen still has many moths flying about. Moth extravaganza out here. I need my own place. Living on a friends kitchen come lounge where the sofa is located is starting to really, really aggravate me. And now that I am having therapy and stuff is coming out, I really, really, REALLY value my solitude. On top of this I cannot deal...Read More...

((deepfried)) How wonderful that you have such loving feelings towards the members of those groups. I can see that being a positive experience once I am ready for it. I love the book idea upon graduation. I would cherish that, too. These are people that get to know one another VERY VERY intimately, so it makes sense how important those books and bonds would be. --BrokenRead More...

Hi HIC, I just wanted to comment on the money aspect. My T allows both phone calls and emails between sessions and has never charged me for either. He considers it part of the service. My usual phone calls are around 2-3 minutes. A really long call runs 10 and my longest ever was 15. When I stopped going regularly (I 'ended' evidently didn't take too well ) I asked about his contact policy and he told me that nothing would change, he was still my therapist and I could call or email anytime.Read More...