I understand why face to face is better. My therapist and I are doing intense trauma work, but right now she is out of town for a couple months. She said we can skype and talk on the phone... but it just isn't the SAME. It was hard when she left-- beccause we both know how important the "in person" part is to me. She says it wont be the same, she knows that, but at least it would be SOMETHING. But I just really, really need her in person.Read More...

I'm so sorry you went through that... so scary and sad Yes, I have been in situations where I could have easily died and was left alone. It is a painful place.Read More...

Hi TN, I just read your second post. I feel your pain and confusion and ambivilance. I agree with you about filing a report. That I think would hurt you. And even though you've done what was needed, said everything on your heart and head- you still will have the pain and the emotion especially of what could have been. I know that even thought I've accepted my situation, the first thought of it and the past year and what could have brings me to tears. I think you and T still have more...Read More...

Puppet, Glad you are feeling better about this and seeing that it is not such a bad thing after all. I'm sure you aren't the first and probably won't be the last person who has called and hung up on her. And I do think its a sign of progress that you were even willing to reach out at all and call, even if you ended up changing your mind. Reaching out is a good thing!Read More...

Thanks for that summation of Oz, SD - really good!! I'm adding We Aussies think this is the best country on earth and equate it with the wonderful land of Oz (as in the wizard!) My take anyhow!!! So pleased you're feeling so much better and grounded AG. xx MorgsRead More...

So proud of you, Jane, and happy your T was able to be close throughout the terror of sharing such hard stuff. Sometimes feeling someone close to you in that experience means more than anything. (((hugs))) and prayers as you continue to face the challenge ahead.Read More...

((SomeDays)) I think we are going to learn a lot from one another. I'm very passionate about helping others find their own happiness, and when/if I find a "trick" or "technique" that helps to calm the storm raging inside of me, I am going to gladly share it with you all.Read More...

Hi brokenillusions, I can really relate to the pain you're feeling, it sucks, I hope you're feeling better this week.Read More...

Well we're in therapy to learn to break the patterns, so don't you even think about taking a break or running! (Where's the emoticon that shakes it's finger at you while the other hand is on its hip and its mouth is going a mile a minute?) I know that might seem like the 'easy' way out of the fear and panic and angst that you feel, but you'll never get through it all if you don't forge ahead and stick it out. I know you know all of this, and I don't know if you're thinking of running again...Read More...

Hey BB, Unfortunately we are already running into trouble with Skype scheduling since she cannot skype when her son is home from daycare (because he would be too demanding of her attention). So yesterday we were supposed to skype at 445 my time which is 545 her time and her son would have been home, so she arranged a play date for him but it fell through at the last minute so we had to do a phone session. Then tomorrow we cannot skype because she is packed so full in her schedule that she...Read More...

(((((DF))))) I think it totally warrants a call to your T, these are big decisions!! I want to just comment though that I don't think T should be telling you not to go back to school. She should be encouraging you to pursue things that will make you happy, and if that is school...then go for it.Read More...

I wonder why people find fault in others so easily than findin something good? I'm irritated with my sis in law who keep teaching me traditional things. Its not wrong but its th timing. Just thought of sharing here. As i don want to tell anyone.Read More...

Thank you so much for your kind reply. This was very moving for me to read - and very helpful. Especially what you said about giving the world what she wanted to. That is very powerful and really opened my eyes. I appreciate your reply and I am so, so sorry for your loss. My parents are changed people from losing their daughter. I can't even imagine what you're going through. Stay strong and thanks again for the kind words!Read More...

Hi SD, This is actually a complicated question and the answer somewhat depends on what the asker really wants to know. No one is the exact same person in all circumstances with all people, it actually wouldn't be appropriate. Of course, we're going to be behave differently at our job than we would at a family party, or behave differently with our kids than we would with our friends. In our relationship with our kids, we need to keep it about their needs and not place the burden of our needs...Read More...

I understand better now frosty. That makes sense about why your P suggested suing them, although that would be awful... Do your parents know that if they kicked you out, they would need to give that money to you? Or are they saying they would keep it? (Maybe it hasn't come up?) Makes sense too about going inpatient. Grr. This is just crummy. I wish your parents would get help for themselves. My mom asked me once how she could help me with my illness, and she even met with my T and I to talk...Read More...

How did it go, DF? Hope you were able to make yourself go, but understand if you weren't. Taking those huge steps can be terrifying, but so healing if/when we force ourselves to feel the fear and do it anyway. MTFRead More...

Wishing you all the best with your session today ((((((( AG ))))))) LLRead More...

Fantastic, Yaku. It takes a lot of stamina and patience to work out insurance problems like this - applause for you! I hope this helps to ease things with your mortgage situation.Read More...

Oh heck yeah it impacts my looks. I gained 30 pounds in a few months last year, granted I was a bit underweight to begin with but yeah, it totally changed the way I looked. I even stopped showering every day at one point and just wore whatever was hanging on the end of the laundry basket from the day before. i've noticed that when I started interviewing for the job I got, I felt soooo much better about myself when I got dressed all cute like I used to. Now I make more of an effort to get...Read More...

My T gives me his notes almost every week. I find them very honest, right on, and quite interesting to read. I can only think of once or twice that something upset me and I questioned him on it. He then got upset that I was questioning essentially his personal take on things. I actually apologized that I was out of bounds. So, he says I'm the only patient that has asked to see their notes??? Cant believe that. Anyway, I appreciate him sharing them with me. I need to know where he thinks I...Read More...

((((((BB))))) thanks for your support. I know you are going through a lot right now. It's different for me not to feel immense fear for the first time in my life. I hope you can find it also with cowboy t. It might take time. But hopefully you will get there. Xoxoxo lieseRead More...

you have such a great sense of humor. You crack me up, Draggers! I want you stuck to my windsheild. Just for a fly-by- a dragonfly visit. Sometimes- even from the beginning, T does things or says things, that make me freak out a bit- and I can't identify the source of the freak out. It is not his words at all, (intellectually- I get it) but rather it's my feelings and internal reaction to his words or his actions. I wish I could figure it out. It is like he is representing someone else in my...Read More...

Thanks Morgs and TN- I wish I could offer more right now on here. I just have nothing of value to say about therapy, and I can't really take in the kind words of encouragement about Cowboy appropriately. so I guess that is the real reason I am not around very much. I don't know what I think about it all, or what I feel. There is a big part of me that is very cynical about therapy, and thinks it is a big waste of time and money- but doesn't know what else to do. because of being told...Read More...

((GG)) - I think if you feel like you have to whine and whinge - then you go for it. If it is what you need to function let it out. I tend to find that when things are going so negatively for me - then i get a ton of physical complaints also. Thanks Universe.Read More...

***Possibly triggering*** Kind of related, kind of unrelated...but I was talking to my H about some parts stuff that is coming up on our drive down to see my dad, because I'm getting a lot of feedback of being scared to go see him and trying to work through what that's about and was saying how he couldn't have done anything bad, because of a memory I had of him getting very angry about me trying to kiss him on the lips at my grandmother's house when I was little, and the fact that affection...Read More...