I get the feeling you are ready to deal with it since you are thinking about it. Maybe I'm wrong, but hear me out. My T says, "If you're thinking about it, and not wanting to talk about it, it is a really good indication that we should talk about it." When she tells me that, I put it out there, and it helps, to get it off my mind and feel proud of myself for facing something I thought I couldn't. Let us know what you decide to do; I'll be thinking about you.Read More...

I so can not ask for what I need. At all. And it infuriates me! I mean, I know what to do, I just can't do it!! It hasn't gotten better since my T gave me permission to need her and call and so on, it seems instead like it's gotten worse. I'm sure it's part of the process, but it is a tough thing for me to handle. I've been trying to stay off of the interwebs so I stay a little more focused on myself. While that is a little helpful, it is really isolating. I hope that I push myself to the...Read More...

Not a childrens book,but I was watching Tarzan with my daughter this morning and cried over this part http://www.youtube.com/watch?v...Gofw&feature=related Miss my T, have survived 10 days, just 24 days to goRead More...

The Halloween Peeps are in the shapes of pumpkins, cats, and ghosts, I think. Christmas Peeps are in the shape of Christmas trees and snowmen, I believe. Valentine's Day they are in the shape of Hearts and also in the shape of spelling out "I love U", etc.Read More...

You guys gave me such much helpful information. It was all so great. STRM, I am on 300 mg but don't know what manufacturer. It's definitely a generic. That's so interesting that who the drug is manufactured by can make a difference. I started out on 75 mg, 3x a day for a grand total of 225 mg. I then go the extended release tablet of 300 mg. The NP was worried that the 300 mg would be too much but it seemed as though the only other option would be to prescribe something to take twice a day...Read More...

(((BG))) Thanks, your joke to your T gave me a big laugh too and a big smile, which is sorely needed today. I am hoping some day in the (probably distant) future, I won't be so ambivalent about every single relationship I embark on, especially in this thing we call therapy that really feels like open heart surgery (minus anesthesia) sometimes.Read More...

FFOW, I can actually imagine T as the protector with no issue. She has even physically acted this out with me when I felt scared like there was an abuser in the room. It's when I try to have one of my internal parts be a protector or someone besides T that it is more of an issue. I'm glad that you had a different experience and your responses changed. That is great!Read More...

Dragonfly, that must have been really hard to feel that way about yourself. I don't quite get all this. We are exposed to something we never had to realize that we still can't have it? That's supposed to heal....? I can't accept that it is supposed to work like this. I'm just angry and annoyed. There is part of me that keeps saying that' I'm better looking than her and it is me who he wants and cares about. Nothing can take him away from me... except myself. There is another part of me that...Read More...

Please stay safe Jane! Go ahead & cry, but not too much - you are in a flood warning already! GGRead More...

I have to agree totally with you that this article does give hope, it echoes totally what my t told me near the start of therapy, 'we are in for a marathon here, it will take time as long as it takes, and I will not be going anywhere while we are taking this journey together'. So true the other stuff it mentions about attunement, and maybe it should be required reading for all those 'pros' out there who told me there was no cure for my cptsdRead More...

No, but it sounds like a really good little book. Thanks for sharing.Read More...

GG- what would you say if one of us was posting what you posted? Would this be the type of relationship that you would want me to have with my T? Or would you think I deserve someone compassionate, a good listener but firm and challenging just the same? I feel the physical illness from this. It hurts to read. I know she helped you and that is awesome. Take what you got, it's good. But what she is doing now is not good. If she's got compassion fatigue, it's up to her to suggest a break. No...Read More...

Hi DeepFried, I don't think your T is judging you for the decisions you make, right or wrong. We all have times when we give in to the negative feelings and behaviors and that's part of being human. It's a process. My rule is full disclosure with my T, even if it is the same old story. He/she is there for you. If you are hiding something from him/her, may be it would help to look at that, to tell the T that you thought you should withhold this and why. What happened when you were a child is...Read More...

I've had thoughts like this as well. And yet I keep going back.Read More...

OMG I was just thinking about smores today. Now I want some! I think I'll make a s'mores date with myself for tomorrow night. Have you tried microwaving them. I like to think of it as urban s'moring when you live in an apartment and can't build a bonfire.Read More...

((AG)) ((kashley)) ((yaku)) ((justmaybe)) Thanks so much for the responses. I can't type much right now so will have to respond in more detail later. But I have been reading and thinking and I'm really hopeful and your responses helped me look at this differently. I see my eq t again tomorrow - and I'm a little scared and yet looking forward to it too... will typoe more later...Read More...

FOT, I hope you did decide to keep your appointment after all, just wondering how everything is going? LLRead More...

I'm sorry MH I didn't get to post to you before now, but I'd like to say now how pleased I am for you and that though there was a compromise you feel a whole lot better now. That was a great text response from your T, isn't it amazing how when someone says the right thing, it can change everthing. Had she answered differently, you may very well not have gone in at all and this could all have escalated even further into crap feelings. So good for your T and good for you for going in. LLRead More...

TN, I think that was very sweet of T to include that little note in his email to you. I do think that was his way of reaching out to say he was thinking of you, that he cares, and he knows you are having a difficult time. Very thoughtful and caring of him. Warm fuzzies just thinking about it. I also want to say that I can relate to the whole birthday misery thing. Two years ago on my birthday I came home to find my husband of only 7 months having sex with our yoga instructor on the sofa.Read More...

Ooh DF, caramel centers would be awesome! We could be milk duds! ((((Forlorn)))) Thank you, that meant so much to me to read. I'm so glad you found the movie. Thank you for taking the time to post this.Read More...

Thanks Yaku, Amazon, and smiley...it helps me feel less alone that you all experience this as well...but i feel sad that you do, too I don't know what else to write right now...feeling my social anxiety kicking in but i wanted to respond and let you know i read what you wrote...mlcRead More...

My T explained this to me once, but I'm going on memory here. When the other defenses fail which are fight, flight or freeze then submission becomes the last defense in order to stay alive. If you fight when it is too dangerous you could end up hurt more. If you can't flee then you might freeze, but if freezing fails you are out of defenses to it no longer makes sense to use any 3 of those because you could end up in worse shape.Read More...

I'm glad to read this. Good luck and come back here to let us know how it went.Read More...

perhaps its actually nothing to do with right or left side, perhaps thats just a smokescreen and a way of fantasizing one has control over their anxiousness?Read More...

Yes, these are exactly the type of things we have been focusing on. Thanks for sharing where you and your T are at and I'm so glad things are starting to open up a bit for you with your wonderful T. Really good to see you call him your T and not your NewT too, though I know that is sometimes the case. I just really see you growing closer lately, despite what a hard journey it sometimes seems to be and it is really heartwarming to witness. I am so happy for you each time you are able to take...Read More...