((LG)) i'm so sorry to hear about what you've been through! I know you care about T1 and it is obvious she truly cares about you, but it must be excruciating watching her fall apart when she is supposed to help you! i hope T2 comes back soon and you can get some helpful sessions with her. hugs and i hope you can look after yourself until then. puppetRead More...

Thanks very much to all of you!!! To be able to put thoughts "out there" and not worry about being judged or have a pen start scribbling madly on my file. I've also done the hormone testing Ninn hoping it would turn out that some type of pill would finally work on my symptoms and be able to drop the mentally ill label. Again, I appreciate everyones input and have taken away something from each of your posts.Read More...

Ooh, I also love Mary Pipher's books, have to go check this one out! Thanks for the recommendation BG!Read More...

Hi Willow I wish I could say something to make it go away for you but I can't except to say that we are here for you. It's very brave of you to recognise that transference is occuring (there are some other posts on here about transference and people who are more experienced with that in t might be able to offer some stories here to you) its a tough call to say what you should do but then you are also recognising that it is a tough call (lots of insight in your post) and you name your...Read More...

For clarification - I find it easier to accept there is no manual on how to exactly fix myself (auto mechanic idea). What frustrates me more at this point is the lack of clarity, structure, manual, on therapy itself. That there is no way of knowing how therapy is proceeding, if it is progressing, if there is the alliance thingy going on, etc. The books seem to always blame the client for regressing, transferring and resisting, for therapy not working, except in cases of blatant professional...Read More...

KAshley - I have experienced the same thing. One of my t's even encourages me to call if I need reassurance that I am not completely insane because of it. I know it is not fun, but I don't think you are completely bonkersRead More...

Hi Masimo, This was a good way to get started. Actually a while back we had a couple of threads on what people wanted on the forums and possible changes. I've been derailed from doing anything about due to an extremely busy work schedule which is very nearly complete. After I have a chance to catch my breath I was going to re- read everyone's input and try to implement some changes, but I would definitely like a chance to think through the design and what will work. Adding a domestic abuse...Read More...

L2F, Yes indeed, the economy is very difficult. I lost my job a year ago and am looking for work at the moment. Its very discouraging. I hope things pick up for you soon.Read More...

Hi Othermother, I haven't had a chance to do any reading yet (work is a trifle demanding at present) but am looking forward to it (especially with TN and Beeb's recommending it.) Thanks for sharing it here and welcome to the forums! AGRead More...

Thanks you guys! I really appreciate the support and encouragement. I've been intherapy before, but it has never been like this, with a T that is so good for me! It is Soooooo much harder than it ever was before, but she makes me feel so safe it is actually a little scary. At this moment I actually wish I could call her (and I can call and leave a VM if I really wanted) because I am at a workshop till Friday and am having major anxiety over staying in this hotel room for the next two nights.Read More...

Yeah, that was my assumption too, but it's good to make that clear, for sure.Read More...

((((Jane)))) hope you have heard back from your T by now. Let us know how you are doing, k?Read More...

So glad you feel like you have a good dynamic with this new T. I hope you'll keep us updated!!!Read More...

BG, I know exactly what you mean about not getting promises being more comforting to you. My T2 doesn't give promises and in a way, its sort of reassuring. I guess perhaps because if and when she does term me, I won't look back at broken promises and feel betrayed. Whereas if T1 were to term me after all of her promises...I'd be so crushed and it would really affect my ability to believe anything anyone promises to me in the future.Read More...

(((LG))) Been offline because I am on college tours with my oldest and so just saw your post. So glad you are working on your portfolio. That sounds great. I love when I get into that space when I can really focus on something. It feels so good, doesn't it? For me lately, it's too few and far between. Why does life have to be so complicated? It makes me really angry. Draggers, it's good to see you. Hope you are doing okay. Hugs, LieseRead More...

wow, I just went back through some of my old posts (Thanks for reminding me of them LadyGrey) And I totally forgot about this messy situation with ex-ArtT. Damn, I should've seen this termination coming. How did I not see it coming?! therapist, hmpfh!Read More...

LL, I am speechless...still When I read this the first time I couldn't respond because I literally had no words. I'm actually trying to combine a list of sorts and see which ones stick out. So far Too much personal disclosure has been mentioned a lot. I appreciate everyone contributing like this. I know it can't be easy remembering this stuff. I agree, I think these examples should be in a textbook somewhere. Screw Freud, let's talk about what's going on right here right now.Read More...

I think it's a possibility, Beebs. You were SO not getting your needs met, the relationship was causing enormous frustration and repressed anger (it was not really safe to express it)and in the end it caused hopelessness. This all *could* lead to depressive symptoms. Therapy supposed to do the opposite. You should feel better... at least s ome of the time. When people speak of therapy as being tough and difficult they mean in the way that you are facing long buried feelings, you are looking...Read More...

Hi sea-green, So glad you have found somewhere that might suit your circumstances. It's ok to go to counseling when it suits you...even if you go only when you need that extra support - it's good to be able to reach out when you need to. Nice to see you have posted again Take care, Faith xxRead More...

Not at all far-fetched, stoppers! Thank you!Read More...

(((everyone))) I am so sorry. I can relate to the feelings that surface when seeing children interact with good daddies. I didn't call my dad!!Read More...

Thanks DF! Only day 5 I guess, but still!Read More...

I am just going to write on this post tonight. It was a rough day yesterday with Father's day and today was not good either. I believe I had mentioned that I take medicine for health reasons. Well I have RA-Rheumatoid Arithritis and it is severe. I take some heavy meds-and today I had to have a medicine infusion done. Normally it takes about 3 hours but today it took 5 hours. I had to have lot of Benadryl put it me to stop a reaction and got nausea from it too. I had driven myself to the...Read More...

Still out for a couple of days, due to Father's Day (hard holiday, I'm sure, for a lot of us), family birthdays, my anniversary, etc. Noticed this thread was "active" while checking a PM, so just a quick check-in. Hoping I can find my way back here, as I miss all of you, especially hearing about how everyone is doing. (((Hugs))) and thanks for the kind words and wisdom!Read More...