(((Jane))) As hard as it is when all this crap is happening try to breathe more deeply and go more gently with yourself! Morgs xRead More...

Sadly is your son sick? Did I read that right? It sounds like you are having such a rough time lately. I hope you can weather all of this and come out of the other side to a better place.Read More...

Kashley I can totally relate to that feeling of utter exhaustion after a session, sometimes I have to concentrate so hard to simply drive home. Occasionally I have to go to workor a meeting shortly after my session and I find it really hard to step out of the difficulties of the session and into a worls whre everything seems surreal for a while. The post session headache is a real downer, mine often start in session and typically last for most of that day or the next. I think the only thing...Read More...

This is exactly what I think it is! I'm so pissed that I made the decision and now feel better! It would have been easier if she was mad at me or if the decision was made and I was still upset, but the sense of relief is NOT comforting! Thanks Liese and BG... It feels so weird to put myself and my needs first...Read More...

BG, it all sounds good. I've been reading along, but not much to offer for some reason. It's great that your journey has progressed to peacefully rbing you to the point of considering this*for yourself* with no pressure or hinting from him- I love the sound of your T. He seem amazing form the posts I read from you. So glad you can consider leaving and trying your wings, with no pressure. Take your time- BBRead More...

I'm so glad that the longer session deal got worked out a bit more. I was surprised at how he reacted to it in session, so it was really great that you emailed for more clarification. I suspect there's going to be a lot of us who are T-less the week of the forth, yours truly included. Anyway, take care..thanks for keeping us updated. (((hugs)))Read More...

oh dear, tacy- we do understand...please keep posting as much as you need to. It's very difficult to go through this and you shouldn't be alone with it. It sounds like your T is being very understaning to you, so that is good. hugs, BBRead More...

It looks like an awesome book, LW- thank you for recommending it! And welcome here! BBRead More...

Well, I just got back from a session. I talked to my T about this and she had some opinions about it which I'm still digesting. She asked what you guys thought, since I told her I posted about it here. She agreed with the comments about showing compassion to myself, and that it was real and came from somewhere. She said the body is in a constant state of healing, and that its always good to let oneself feel. She didn't believe there was an absence of cognition, but just a division in my mind...Read More...

Puppet - thank you. I wish I intellectually understood how talking to someone would help me stop feeling terrible when I know there is rationally nothing wrong. I probably do not trust them when they tell me therapy can help and is proceeding as it should. It seems to me to be a bit like asking a butcher if it is okay to eat meat.Read More...

(((TN)))) I've had experiences like that too when my T doesn't show the emotion that I want him to show. We've started to discuss this but he hasn't given me any answers yet. IMO, it's an important discussion to have. My last therapist (she was wierd) would kind of pretend to ignore me and then say she didn't realize how much distress I was in. And, so with this T, I'm kind of like, did you get how distressed I was? You need to know how distressed I was. And I can't tell if you're not...Read More...

I do the exact same thing. I think I tend to see people as having only a certain amount of niceness or tolerance for me, so I avoid doing anything that would cause someone to do anything for me because it's like I'm draining a bank account that's already close to the red. And then I think I try to do something *at least* as equally giving (or whatever) because it's like I'm trying to cancel out the cost of what they gave to me. If that makes sense. I think the thing about someone doing...Read More...

I'm going to take DF's suggestion and close this thread. Sadly if you wish to discuss this further, could you please open a new thread? Thanks, sorry for the inconvenience. AGRead More...

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You can download BBC tv programmes on something called BBC I-Player, free to install from internet. However I don't know if it's available overseas. Worth a try though as this programme looks really interesting. Thanks for posting it Jones! LLRead More...

Dear JD, I'm so sorry you are facing something so scary, and an awful doctor to boot - you just don't need that and I wish I could MAKE everyone around you just take extra care at the moment. But I'm hugely impressed that through all this you are making such huge strides with containment and self-care. This is really beautiful to watch. Thank you for being brave enough to share this with us. I'm thinking of you and really hope you get just good, easy news from the docs from now on.Read More...

I was put on Seroquel when I went in-patient for 12 days last December. It was my "mood stabilizer" and due to it knocking me out cold, was taken at night. Within 30 minutes of taking it, I'd be out cold, literally. My dosage was 300/night. As soon as I started it my sleep was disturbed horribly. Bad nightmares, so vivid, like I was awake in my sleep. It was awful. I also got horrible SI once I was home for a few weeks. My P switched me from Seroquel 300 to Symbyax 6/12. The change was...Read More...

Excellent piece you found BG - thanks for posting it!Read More...

Hi AG - the new layout looks good to me, especially the Welcome section! Thanks for all your work AG, expecially when you're flat out at work!! Take care, MorgsRead More...

Thanks LG and Yaku. I think that I said all that to him, with my hand on my mouth, giggling a lot, and really shocked that I was saying it at all but feeling utterly safe. SweetP is so safe. He was actually encouraging me: " Go on, S, please try and say more of this if you can." It was very lovely to be able to let off steam and not get shouted at. It was really kind of him. He KNOWS I am finding the holding issue really hard and has been asking me for over two months about how I feel about...Read More...

LG I agree with what DF said, I'm sure there are great things about her or you wouldn't be with her. But fwiw, I've been married 25 years and would never go through my husband's phone without permission, nor would he go through mine. Have to admit that it would be a red flag for me. AGRead More...