Good to know you're around Moomin - I hope things are a little better for you! HugsRead More...

My current Dx is Anxiety and moderate depression (know this cause of the insurance codes.) Thought I know right now we're working through a lot of PTSD crap, too, but that's not been coded for insurance. I don't really think it needs to be, either, really. I think that the Dx is not nearly as important as the work itself, and am kinda glad that my T and my P are using the general codes for insurance. Keeps things simpler, I suppose?Read More...

Well, I took the step of letting him know in a journal entry that I WANT to discuss these attachment feelings and my inner Kiddo's desire to have him be closer. Now, I most likely can't escape it. The way I am looking at it now is that there is no way out but through. Either I can stay in this injured place and try to repress and ignore it to the best of my ability, disconnecting from so many other things (and relationships) in the process...or I can push through these death-like feelings...Read More...

I'm so proud of your courage and happy that T was able to meet you and be present when you needed her. That is big! ((((((((Jane)))))))))Read More...

You guys make a great point. I would love for his default position to be "with me," but it really is something that should be reserved for the necessity of working through overwhelming stuff. Just because I feel child-like feelings toward him, does not mean that what I really need or should receive from him is a parental connection. What I really wish for, is when I get to that point where I cannot even speak, because I am in so much pain and he feels too far away for my words to cross the...Read More...

Thanks. I've got a pretty high level of honesty with T. No meds yet. Still vaccilating on that one. If I went on meds, I'd like it to be a process my T is involved in, but if I go through the psychiatrists in his office, HMO won't cover it, because everything I do with him is out of pocket. So, I would have to see GP and have her refer me elsewhere, to someone who probably wouldn't coordinate with T...which would be a confusing situation.Read More...

((((R2G)))) It is so hard went the walls melt. It's good to know I'm not alone in this journey. So glad for my T too! Thanks, jdRead More...

Great songs, UV- thanks for posting them! BBRead More...

I'm sorry you're having such a hard week, R2G, but glad you were able to have the extra sessions with T and you seem to be so much more comfortable with needing T, which is such a good resource to have. ((((((((((R2G))))))))))Read More...

(((Empty))) that was so brave to leave after investing 5 long years in the relationship!! I'm afraid I don't know the procedures for reporting abusing Ts - your current T may be able to advise!! and there are people here who have been through this and will advise. It's a hard decision to make as the ripple effect will be wide, but what feels most important to me is that that she could be hurting other vulnerable clients and reporting her may mean she gets help herself and doesn't practice...Read More...

1. "so and so" called in sick today. ie: more work for me again 2. manicure, pedicure 3. tom hanks 4. beautiful beach vacation on the gulf of mexico 5. do my training walk (hopefully 8-9 miles), bead shopping, jewelry making, reading, going to bed earlyRead More...

AG...I'm right there with you! I'm certain my T probably goes to Costco to buy Kleenex by the pallet after dealing with me. Crying is one thing I can do quite well.Read More...

Thank you for sharing further - everyone draws hope from your story! Thank you also for your offer TN - maybe one day? Best back MorgsRead More...

Jones - I don't think you oversimplified. I think you made a very valid point from the content of my posts. I think my tendency to process in writing stems from my inability to recall anything in person. I sometimes blank so hard I feel like I am not even in the room. My writing is a way for T to not have to play 20 questions with me to get me to talk at all. I don't want to sit there for an hour and waste $125 with him saying, "Well, how about things with your Mom? No? What about marriage...Read More...

OK! Let's do it. It might be triggering, and it might be better in there. I'll go put it up now. For anybody wondering what we are talking about- the book is "Healing through the Dark Emotions by Miriam Greenspan.Read More...

Unfortunately, this didnt come up in my next session, it appears my subconscious wanted to deal with another issue, so we did and very satisfying that turned out to be, even though it took be completely by surprise, but thats psychoanalytic therapy for you.Read More...

(((Yaku))) (((STRM))) I see my T in an hour and a half. I still can't believe I actually took her up on her offer and called for the extra appointment, of which I know she's going into the office early to accommodate me. I can't believe I have gotten that desperate.Read More...

Hello and welcome tcmmama, starfishRead More...

Yaku, these are really big decisions... and I will be praying for you! I've done a little bit of both working and staying home. I much prefer staying home, and with two kids any amt of time I could work would likely cancel itself out after daycare etc. The beautiful thing is kids are resilient... and so she would be fine in the right care, and you might feel happier contributing to the finances. I think every mom has to do what works best for her, because if mama aint happy aint nobody happy...Read More...

Thanks STRM. It feels like my body is going through all this stuff and my mind is just giving up and checking out - and then going too fast - and I hope I can find some middle ground soon. Thanks so much for the encouragement. ~~~ hmmm, I wonder if this is why my Ts steadiness is so helpful and grounding for me right now. It's such a contrast to the roller coaster I feel like I am on. The more steady and present she is, the easier it is to just hang on through the pain somehow. hanging for...Read More...

Thanks LG and STRM, we're going to still TRY for tomorrow morning, but he is not 100% sure whether his schedule will permit. If that doesn't work out, then probably some time on Saturday. I'm secretly happy to know a little bit more about his family. Not anything weird or too personal, but he is seeming more human to me right now.Read More...

Incognito, I agree that your daughter must feel really safe with you to say all of that to you. It sounds like you handled it well. I'm sorry your session didn't go well and you felt like you weren't able to talk about what you needed to. I've been there and it sucks. I'm sure your T would welcome any discussion regarding how the session went. I hope the next one is better!Read More...

I didn't react or say anything when she made the comment about Facebook. I wish I had said something about it though, but in the moment I remember thinking I wanted to appear unaffected by it. She can't see my wall, so all she can see is my bio, etc. Not sure why she would have looked me up on Facebook. I don't really care that she did, I'm more just curious why???Read More...

I didn't get a chance to read all the messages, but got the point that many of you took what I wrote about hugs in a negative context. Let me clear the air - that was not what I was saying at all. It struck me how people can see what isn't there based on their personal outlook and the day they are having. I have ALWAYS made it my intention to be positive on this forum and have never criticized the help I have received. In fact it was me who actually ASKED for a hug from you and got them!Read More...

Thanks, Sadly. It's OK if you just write a few lines while you're away. I hate to think of you writing all these replies that evaporate into the ether. It must be frustrating and take a lot of your time. I appreciate you making such an effort to reply to my posts! (((((Sadly)))))Read More...