Awww LG, thanks. It's funny. Sometimes he tells me how lucky he is to be with me, to be married to his best friend, to have such a great mom for his daughter, etc. And sometimes he is complete @$$ and acts like I do nothing, like I obviously don't care about him and he wishes I realized it a year ago and left him then. But, 99% of the time I talk with T, T can't stop talking about how thankful H is to be with me. So, I wonder if T believes that H ever acts negatively toward me. Also, I...Read More...

thank you BB!! i'll update soon puppetRead More...

Me, too! Thanks for sharing this, R2G! MTFRead More...

I get this experience in session quite frequently. Occasionally it happens at home and I don't notice people trying to interact with me (sometimes H or my daughter). H has yelled at me for "ignoring" them.Read More...

BB - Actually, usually, he is very client directed. And usually I can say nothing at all unless he picks a topic. However, he always tries very hard to get me to do it. I think that is why he reads my journals. Literally, this guy has read over 140 pages of 1.15 spaced typed work (though some are charts) in eight months, and most of it is since December. He actually says he "loves" my journaling, and it's so good, he thinks I should find a way to organize it into a book, because my words and...Read More...

Thanks everyone! Mayflower - that is so incredible that you were able to do something so effective to keep yourself safe and healthy. And extra kudos for doing it after your first day at a new job. Wow! Jane - that's so hard, making yourself be social when you really, really don't want to. You're brave for going out anyway, and I'm so glad that you had a nice time. Thanks for sharing your experiences...all of it helps me focus on the baby steps I'm trying to take, and I'm sure it helps...Read More...

Great stuff - thanks for these articles, guys.Read More...

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((((((((((BB))))))))))) Marriage stuff came up in my session last night and I was thinking of you, a lot! I know things are hard and just wanted to let you know I'm thinking of you and praying for you!!!Read More...

Hi PF, I'm sorry I didn't respond sooner...I needed to "recover" a bit after my session yesterday. We didn't discuss anything about what I've said here on the thread, but that's partly a good thing, since it means I'm still working on giving the relationship time to build and for my trust to build before I say much else about my coping mechanisms. Ugh. A food diary sounds dreadful, although I'm sure the day will come when my T will ask me to keep one as well. Ok, I lied. We did talk about...Read More...

I know this place well....When I feel it, I try to remind myself it is the ED trying to take me down. I really hope you can talk to your T even if it doesn't feel good at first. Whatever you decide, please be kind to yourself. Grrrr....this subject makes me soooo angry!Read More...

I think I understand what you're getting at Mac!! Totally reasonable!!!Read More...

Incognito, Started this a couple of days ago and never finished. Was trying to locate those articles for you but couldn't yet. I gave them to my T. I should have kept a copy. I'll keep trying. They really helped me feel kinder towards my needy side. Almost like there is a side of me that bullies that needy side, almost like I don't need a bully anymore. I do it to myself. I think the bully side is actually to protect me but winds up hurting me because I'm not getting certain emotional needs...Read More...

Yeah, sorry to hear that. That would scare me quite a bit as well! But, please do PM any of us if you need support!!!Read More...

Dear AG I'm watching, reading and sometimes managing to post too....but I care about you and your journey. Thanks for the updates that are so intuitive and open, you are an insiration to us here I am sorry too, to read about your losses and pain, but am glad you are in such safe hands with your T. Take care, starfishRead More...

My T also opens with a prayer. It is the first thing he does, except, "Hi, Yaku, how are you?" and inviting me to come into his office. So, I wouldn't even have the opportunity to ask, because he always asks if we can pray first. I like that he does it, but sometimes some of the things he says in prayers trigger me. It's weird. I guess, because he knows me so well, he really prays for things that target where I am directly and it's like having a bruise poked or something.Read More...

I was thinking the same thing AG when I read this thread. I think they need to be separate.Read More...

That is great! Thanks for sharing.Read More...

I joined Easter Choir and our first practice was today, so that took my mind off things a bit. But H was very angry and pissy that I am taking on more outside activities while not accomplishing my "job" at home (meaning I'm not keeping as up-to-date with chores and not doing as well with our daughter as either of us would like. It's like I can't win for trying. Blah!Read More...

Church sermon had several things in it today that made me think I am making the wrong decision here. But I can't tell if that's really the case or just a matter of the teaching pastor (NOT the guy who I have been talking stuff over with, but a younger pastor who teaches on occasion) not connecting with me. This particular guy, though a friend since I was about 20, tends to put me off with the way he teaches and the things he said, so maybe I'll just pray about it and stick with my gut...Read More...

Welcome back! I'm proud of your H too. That's so awesome. Have a lot of Disneyland memories, some good and some bad. Glad you guys made some good ones!Read More...

Frosty! I love those! The two with the horses and the kitties are so sweet. Totally warmed my heart The kitten that looks like he is almost starting to do a headstand on the floor is too adorable! The one with the hamster (?) and the GIANT carrot made me totally laugh out loud. All of them are so cute! Thanks for sharing them!!! ~jdRead More...

Jane, I'm really glad what I said helped. When I read this, it made me think of a quote from a book that I'm reading right now, Bird by Bird: Some Instructions on Writing and Life by Anne Lamont: And evidently, what kind of horse. Cadence may have been short-lived, but she lived when she had the chance, and has passed that lesson on to you. You honor her by taking your own risks and actually living your life. I know it is scant comfort right now, but the impact she has had on your life gives...Read More...

my sweet P said often says that he was thinking about some comment I said, or something I wrote, or that he was talking to his supervisor about it, and of course I think "gosh, he was thinking about me OUTSIDE of a session!" It is nice to be thought about. I like it when they reveal something like that.Read More...

Many welcome backs to all of you, and hi to anyone who I am just now meeting!Read More...