Hi Sadly- Sounds like it could be interesting but I have yet to lose my T. We have been through some seriously painful shit, but we both seem willing to see it through- and work things out. but I bet I could learn from reading others stories. I have fired my T a few times, but he always acts so gracefull about it, that I have to go back. And we end up talking and working things out. maybe because- even if he were not my T- as a regular person I would like him and want to have some sort of...Read More...

Oh, TN! I've been following along with your posts, and I'm so pleased for you that this T seems so warm, compassionate, and competent. That is so great. No, it's not over, and it will probably take a very long time. But at least you can know (even if the feeling is just fleeting!) that you are headed toward healing. Big hugs to you and a very Merry Christmas.Read More...

Thanks LG - yes, it helps to recognise and thanks STRM = I did tell him today and he said that he already really appreciates that I keep trying to be really transparent even when I am telling him that I am experiencing transference but don't know who it is, and also that I tell him I am hiding something because I am too scared to tell it yet. He was sweet and kind about it, as usual. Infact we talked a lot about my fears that he will end me before I am ready and he explained the limitations...Read More...

Morgs, you are a darling, so kind and thoughtful. Happy Christmas to you down under x Yes anybody who is alone over Christmas or struggling with family, friends ...many thoughts and much love to you. I seemed to have collected someone elses turkey for sure as it's way bigger than what I ordered ...(H gently reminding me there are only 4 of us eating and did I mix up pounds and kilogrammes when ordering?!!)...so there's plenty for all, once Morg's party has finished. You're all welcome of...Read More...

((((((((((Marsh)))))))))) I am so terribly sorry for your loss, Marsh. I have two girls myself, and it is my worst nightmare that something would happen to them. It is shocking to me that anyone would ever say to a parent to "get over" the loss of a child. Ever. I can't imagine ever "getting over it", and I'm so sorry for the pain and rage that must be evoked every time someone thoughtlessly says such a thing to you. I very much agree with what everyone said, especially this idea that AG...Read More...

JD, Sorry for the late reply, I've been sick and offline. I agree with Frog, that was a great "ramble" and not rambly at all. I really felt like I was there with you in that parking lot and I could relate to the mixed feelings that you were having seeing her again and reflecting back on your relationship. As far as feeling like it's not ok to want and wanting to be good enough, it is ok and you are already good enough. I know that is so hard to accept and I may as well be the kettle here...Read More...

I asked both my T and my Pdoc about emotional flashbacks. They seemed unfamiliar with the term. I explained to them that I think this is whats happening to me sometimes. I just got a blank look....Shouldn't they know this stuff? They both deal with trauma. Makes me wonder sometimes if we know more than they do. Just get on the internet docs.Read More...

Hi LG... well in my mind signing the email with her first name is more "informal" to me and friendlier. I think initials are colder. My oldT with whom I would frequently email would sign his mails all different ways and sometimes not sign at all LOL. The only consistent thing about him was his inconsistency. Don't read too much into it. Hugs TNRead More...

hope it went well today and you are very fortunate having therapy for free, i hope the session went well and you were able to say how it affected you, being cancelled on and also move on to other things if you needed to.Read More...

DF I loved your words with pictures, that was brilliant. Sorry you are in such a bad place, i know it is a hard time for you and i hope you are hanging in there. Sending you a group hug! Love PanRead More...

That is Awesome to all that have finished their finals!!Read More...

Have a wonderful break Jonesey, will miss your kindness and wisdom. See you soon, starfishRead More...

I had a my last session yesterday before my T goes on vacation and he was definitely being weird. I've only been seeing him for a few months but he's always very serious, almost stoic. But this time he was laughing, joking and talking about Tv shows. Very out of character for him, and when I told him he was being "weird" he told me it was for us to banter a little and that I needed to laugh more. It was interesing to say the least. I didn't really feel like a productive session...We didn't...Read More...

True North or Mayo, I've not visited the Forum for several months and have missed the insight, encouragement and support found here. I have C-PTSD and struggle to recognize any flashbacks that are not visual. I would like to read what TN had to say about emotional flashbacks. Can you share the link with me? Thanks, DeeplyRootedRead More...

So sorry UV to hear about your sister and that you are feeling so down and unable to reach out for support here. I'm not sure what happened between you and your T but most everything can be repaired if both sides are willing to try. Sometimes when we need the support most is when we try to run away from it. That just comes from old maladaptive coping skills that really did us no good. The good thing would be to move towards others for comfort and help. It's just so hard because we found out...Read More...

I found it! I think this site is really useful. http://www.hypnosisdepot.com/P...ial_Kind_of_Love.phpRead More...

Ruby, welcome and don't ever apologize for ramblin....we all do or have or have at least felt that way. I think it's great that you finally posted! Yes, it takes a while I think to settle into a "groove" so to speak with therapy. At least it did for me. To a certian degree, I don't feel like I really accomplished a whole lot of tangible stuff until about a year into it. I also realize that all of the stuff the first year was absolutely necessariy, although, maybe not earthshattering! I don't...Read More...

Yes, now i`m in! Thanks shrinklady! Keep trying Starfish- lol, i am glad to hear i am not the only one being such a dummy orientating here on forum...good luck to you!Read More...

Hi Incognito I have a very dear friend who says the same thing, that the only thing that keeps her going are her children. It is a very painful place to be in and that anxious pain in your chest is horrible, I have had that but not at the momnet and never for extended periods of time. I so wish i had something useful or helpful to say, and i'm really sorry that i don't. Happiness is so elusive, it comes and goes and i was just thinking is that at least by knowing most people have a happier...Read More...

I love happy endings!- when people work things out. Hope y'all are feeling better.Read More...

Thank you dear froggy, Draggers, STRMS for validating what has always held me back from talking more to others....overwhelming shame and a fear of being misunderstood by others. We very slowly make advances in educating the public about mental health issues, but have a long way to go still it seems and as STRMS says, the stigma still remains. Thank goodness for solid, caring support and understanding here from folk like you Marsh, Oh yes, totally get that. I am so fiercly independent in that...Read More...

Thank you from my heart, JD...I'm having a hard time coming up with stuff to say about my stuff right now, and I just wanted to thank you for now. lots of love, BBRead More...

Yes, I am having loads of memories coming up, just flooding in, and lots of feelings but only today did it feel a bit over loading, which is day four days later, and I see her again on Tuesday - three days to go, feels just about manageable. I find the presence of someone else being kind whilst I am going through the trauma releasing, is so healing. Thanks STRM and the rest of you,Read More...

Thank you Shrinklady for supporting and providing this forum. It has changed my life and helped me get through a handful of dark times where I wnted to give up therapy and was hurting beyong beleif. This forum, this community, has really helped me through my therapy. I have even paased on your articles elsewhere on this site to my T and it has lead to some great and healing conversations. This forum, community, and site has helped me on this journey to heal is more ways than I can possibly...Read More...