Another oldie but a goodie (and a very funny one too!) Even shrinklady stopped by to comment! Just Me: Oh, that's so true. I LOVE my bed! Just Me: I found this interesting as it gave me a view of the other side of the whole dependency / attachment / boundaries issues we keep raising on these boards. AG - I don't want to get stuck. Again, another good reminder about why we need to push through with therapy instead of getting stuck in the whole dependency / attachment / boundary areas. I'm OKRead More...

Hi Pippi, Hugs! This must be a horrible time for you especially going through this without the meds. I know exactly what you mean about loving your P and being so strongly attached. BUT what he/his receptionist is doing is absolutely and totally unprofessional and NOT YOUR FAULT!! Where I live it is never OK to not give your patient medication that is essential or withhold the medication that has withdrawal effects without giving support or alternatives, at least he should give you an...Read More...

Hi I'm OK. My therapist has made it very very clear that his door remains open and I am welcome back at any time. And for that matter, I am welcome to take as long as I need to leave. I told him I wasn't leaving unless I knew I could come back. I haven't talked to him yet about communicating after I leave but I have no doubt that I will be able to send him notes or go back in for the occasional "tune up" session. Something he said is really helping me which is I'm not going away from him,...Read More...

This post is an oldie but a goodie - and I'm so glad I found it as I don't have to create in my own words what I am currently feeling regarding boundaries / asking for what I need / phone contact / requests denied and feeling corrected and hence unloved. Cheers! I'm OKRead More...

Mrs. P. I'm so really sorry... I've been to similar places in the past... I imagine I would run and hide too. I think you run away from pain, because I can't imagine there is security and safety if you can't bring these feeling to him and talk about them. I think you do need somebody to help you out through this pain. I don't mean that you can't cope, but perhaps there is a way to make the coping easier. I still have a very good memories of my past feelings and I don't know if it's any...Read More...

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Hi I'm OK, I'm back and as usual have a few things to say. First about the whole idea of being able to be without having to do. I have done both the "I'm so busy I don't have time to breath" and "don't bother me I'm on day 10 of my solataire marathon." In my case, both behaviors were my way of not having to be present and experience my feelings. The lack of care and secure attachment, coupled with abuse, in my childhood left me with no one to teach me how to handle or regulate my emotions as...Read More...

Amazon, your post reminded me of things my T says to me. She frequently says she will never lie to me. Lately she's been calling bullshit on my defenses I use against her. It's funny the effect it has on me when she swears, because neither one of us do it that often, but when she does then it feels like she really means what she's saying. About being creative, I suspect most famous and successful artistic people - whether it be writers or musicians or dancers or artists or designers - have...Read More...

I'm really sad for both HB and us. I wish we could have had the chance to say bye, but I understand. It doesn't seem that I can PM her, so AG, if you're still in contact with her, please let her know that I miss hearing from her, and that I hope she is well. I'm so sad her privacy was violated, and I wish the person who violated her knew how many lives he/she has affected. I'm angry and sad, but mostly, I just miss HB and her ability to reach out to us for support when she needed it. What a...Read More...

Right now the important thing is that you are going to tell your partner not the reason behind it. I have to tell my husband when I screw up and its not because I want to or I know its the right thing to do but because I know that I am getting an ultimatum from someone whom I dont want to loose. And if that is what keeps me doing the right thing I think that is all that is important. I do believe that some day I will get to the point that I will be doing the right thing just because its the...Read More...

He is not actually my therapist but we do therapy. He does do therapy with some patients but that costs more money. The session we have is set up for med check/psychotherapy for 20-30 minutes. If I open up and am honest and can actually start talking than he will usually go longer. It is hard only seeing him once every four weeks which is why we moved it to every three weeks. I cant afford much more than that. But it is like you talk about where you are constantly thirsty and only get a few...Read More...

I think it just takes time to trust, and takes time to have the long term issues sorted. You are very busy person, but probably you need to do something very important for yourself to find your happiness. Few years ago, when I was 26 I just made my recovery from my give or take 3-years depression. But that still didin't make me quite happy. I knew there is something in me, that perhaps would start crying out again sometime in the future. So I had a plan, once I will have fairly stable...Read More...

Thanks Jones For the welcome! I too hope to learn more about everyone as well and look forward to it. =)Read More...

Welcome back, AG - really good to see you here again. And it's delightful to know that you had such a great vacation and return.Read More...

thanks MH - finally, I can see what I look like! Who woulda thought with a name like Jones?!Read More...

Wow Halo. Good for you! I hope everything will be getting better form now on. We'll be really happy for you that you are getting out of this pain. Take care and let us now how is it going with the new P.Read More...

Hey Karen, I don't think you're weird, I think maybe this is really common. I know it happens to me when I'm uncomfortable around someone - like some button gets pushed inside me and I get really rigid and scared around them, even though I know I'm a grownup and they can't hurt me. I know if I could relax things would be fine but I can't un-press that button.... until, like you say, I can leave and relax. I guess it's possible to stop. I know it happens a lot more when I'm under lots of...Read More...

Hi KS... glad you found it helpful. Good luck in your session. TNRead More...

I didn't have a clue about different types of therapy. I think my general idea of therapy was close to CBT, sort of working on changing thoughts and behaviour with somebody who explains what and why and you begin to understand. But when I came across two words: "psychodynamic" and "transference" I realized it is more about feelings and it seems to be working. This is what I was looking for and waiting for all my life. I don't know if my therapist goes by the book. He may, since he is not a...Read More...

CT-thanks for the response. After yesterdays appointment I was still having problems dissociating all evening and still didnt get any sleep last night. Probably due to not having my anxiety medication and it usually helps me fall asleep but that is two nights with no sleep. Today I am depressed and some what suicidal. I wont actually go through with it because I talked to my old highschool psychologist through email. He made me feel a little better. With my new T my things went pretty good.Read More...

Yeah, we do have a lot in common with the child thing. We do joke around at the end when I am paying but then as soon as I walk our of his office the connection is gone and I try everything I can to get the connection back which usually makes him frustrated and mad at me. I call and text and email him constantly sometimes a few times a day. He tries to ignore the ones that are not important but I still get enough of a response from him that its worth doing it. There has been times that I...Read More...

I know what you are saying about the big churches. I came from a big church which was a weird experience. My grandpa and my dad are baptist preachers and my grandpa is from a really small baptist church. When we started going to a larger baptist church when we were growing up my grandparents hated it. Then our Baptist church planted a nondenominational church across town and we went there. It was a nice church and I am sure it had a lot of nice people but I couldnt connect with anyone. I...Read More...

Hi UV, I am going through that, starting to feel the feelings. It is so painful and I am finding it very scary.Read More...