samy- i dont like ants either but if someone did that to me, I would reallly realllly hate them!!! Hope you can send the ants somewhere else real soonRead More...

Robin, Glad to hear you had some fun, although I can definitely see where having to keep the house perfect would be stressful. I'm domestically challenged, total geek but a lousy housekeeper. And I think you actually put your priorities in the right place. Money can't replace being there for your children. So, using my scale, you're more successful! And your small, messy, cozy little house sounds a lot more like a home to me. And one which I'd much rather visit! AGRead More...

kangaroos - samy lions - scott deer - robin LOLRead More...

I remember my grandmother having hers pierced for the first time in her 60's! You're never too old to try something new.Read More...

LOL... is it Samy that says that? lolol.... yeh, its like You KNow so why torture me with naming it? does it REALLY matter? lolol.... I did talk to the therapist yesterday..... we finally figured it out.. i got triggerd by invalidation issues.... my big time favorite trigger that sends me over the edge...Read More...

Hope you have a great time Samy! And we'll try not to have TOO good a time. AGRead More...

Welcome Stormy Angels, glad to have you here! I have to agree with BW, small but cozy! I look forward to getting to know you, thanks for sharing so much background. AGRead More...

it's too soon however their are things I like about it... still not great with the whole 'acceptance of pain' with how it is... ... living and dealing with the present mind of pain, feelings and emotuoions isnt my cup of tea.... lol... gee wonder why.... so time will tell but im trying... .I do like some of the themes so far in terms of being accepting of what you feel and mindful of it all as well as realizing that what youyr brain says isnt something you have to react too.... its what it...Read More...

Welcome back, we missed you! How was the vacation? AGRead More...

Thanks JM, I'm actually doing a little better, down to 5 days! Not like I'm counting or anything. And please, 2 years, you're short term! I've been off and on for the last 17 years (I did take some breaks). And I relate to the business card, my T actually uses his business card for appointment cards, so I get one each session. I have one in my wallet, one on my desk at work and one as a bookmark. Embarrassing, but true! And as for the perfectly normal, you should probably consider the source. AGRead More...

Samy, Sorry I didn't see this sooner! I don't really believe in curses except ones cast by people who have firmly aligned themselves with evil. And I believe they are powerless before God. I certainly don't believe that we can accidentally cause a curse without intending to. Some things just happen or happen for a purpose we're not capable of seeing. Maybe he fell off the roof because if he had left he would have died in a car accident on the way home so the fall saved his life. Not being...Read More...

AG - I certainly identify with your "box" analogy. And yes, as I was reminded this morning, what we are feeling is natural - its just going against them bad messages. You are so right when you say how easily we see the strength and courage in others but not ourselves. I have spent more time doing and caring for others that I never acknowledged my needs or positive points. No need to be sorry for what you call a 'novel' Mine can be much longer at times, it just means theres alot you want to...Read More...

Thanks for the support... welcome to the forumn Ellison! Nice to see a 'new face' posting... ScottRead More...

Scott - WOW! That post was so incredible, informative and touched on many of the points I have had to learn to deal with. Someone told me I should be very selective with whom I confide in. While that is very sound advice, at times you may think the person you have confided in later comes back to bite you. Once burnt, I have now learned to more cautious with whom I even mention it to. While I agree that telling your employer or co-workers, I have been fortunate to have an employer that has...Read More...

Robin, That is awesome that you didn't S/I. I'm glad you're dad got it too. The scrapbook sounds like an awesome idea. Its strange how its so easy for us to cut other people slack and be understanding but how tough it is to do for ourselves. We need to learn to as gentle with ourselves. AGRead More...

i liked the activity... was cool....Read More...

Yuk!!! glad it's gone.... hugsRead More...

glad you found the kittyRead More...

kewl, I will check it outRead More...

Hello BW: So glad to hear that you have been able to bring closure to things with Adrine! Wish there was something that I could do to ease the "pain" and associated frustrations related to your flare ups. I can only have imaginings about how difficult things must be for you. I am hopeful that a successful appeal will afford you the care that you so deserve!!Read More...

Antoni, Sorry! That's the very first time I even heard of it! AGRead More...

Samy, You kinda stumped me on that one! Because there are people I would probably call evil based on their actions. But I'm going to go out on a limb and guess that you haven't come close to voluntarily doing the kinds of things the abusive uncle did. So I guess what I'm trying to say is that we do need to judge other people's behavior's to keep ourselves safe but it should be done as gently as possible. All that said, tracking how you're doing is good if you're using to improve but not so...Read More...

Sarah, Thanks for being so encouraging! And I'm glad that you shared some of your experience, I think being able to hear other people's experiences and being understood are really important and can be incredibly healing. And the "Hurray" came through loud and clear. Thanks! I had a session today with my T and we talked about the whole episode. It was one of those really nice "hey, look how far we've come" sessions. It was nice to skip the whole gut-wrenchingly painful thing for a change. AGRead More...

I did part 2 this morning and do you remember in the Peanuts comic strip when Lucy would play the psychiatrist, and she would finally get something Charlie Brown said, and he would scream "THAT'S IT!" so loud she would do a triple somersault? That's what I felt like going through this lesson. It captured something I've been struggling to pin down. This feeling that imperceptibly I've moved and now find myself in a new place that feels like its got a lot more space. Awesome lesson. 'Cause I...Read More...