I'm analyzing and reanalyzing my conversation and written response from former T. Why do I do that? I know former T knew I had been drinking, so I believe she was assessing me with some of her questions. The conversation was still pretty great and I did feel a boost in confidence after I left her, so I know it didn't turn out horribly. I looked at the message that she sent back to me and realized that she just picked out three things from bottom to top (bottom, middle, top) of my message and...Read More...

Hi Scarzee It sounds like you have found somewhere to get your need for good old fashioned human connection met, and it makes you feel good. To be with others who listen, have a laugh with you and like you is something we all need; and yup, your T doubtless provides that too. Perhaps you don't have that same feeling at home with your family? It makes sense to me you'd miss it when your colleagues aren't there. I don't know if it's transference or not; but I do hope you can find the same...Read More...

Li'l one, Don't forget that Kid is your friend. She really cares about you. Let her hold you a little bit tonight. And you can tell Kid if there is something special that you want. I bet Kid will try to give it to you. li'l one, there are good grown-ups out here. Not everybody is going to leave you. T is going to come back. I bet she told you that before she left. When she comes back, you can tell her how brave you have been. It's hard, and sometimes you cry, but that's okay. From what I can...Read More...

CUPPA ? Why yeaus, I do declare that will help. Y'all ate all the choc mint ice cream. Ta Blu. Nothing is flowing now. It has all settled into crud at the bottom of the kettle. It needs a under it to wake things up.Read More...

Thanks, AG. This was an interesting piece. RabbitEarsRead More...

Hi ((BG)) Ah yes; the healthy or unhealthy 'me' thoughts! I suppose in a nutshell, the difference between two is whether I'm thinking about my therapy or thinking about my therapist!! Am I thinking or doing something that is helpful and healing to me, or am I thinking or dwelling on something I have no control over and hence unhelpful. An example of past unhealthy me thinking would be this. T has a very active pinterest page, literally thousands of pins on there; and I would be constantly...Read More...

It certainly is. I never did mind an early appt when the bush was alive with sights and sounds like that on video. Bill is very lucky to live in the middle of it all.Read More...

True.Read More...

Yes, beautiful! My grandson is in the military and spent time there last year. He fell in love with it and says he wants to go back and stay!Read More...

chocolate mint ice cream--i just had 3 scoopsRead More...

i wish i was in a house with a working air-conditioner!Read More...

i'm the same, too, Crootie. i wish i had answers for you but i don't. we're learning together. TN's got some awesome suggestions above, maybe you can start with those? gentle hugs, and i hope your session goes well.Read More...

Hi Jillian, That happens to be when the AD's first start kicking in. Although I can really tell a big difference and I know they are working, I still get ups and downs until about after a month or two of being on them. Thinking of you,Read More...

Hi Crootie...unfortunately, it's the urge to drink when we're home alone that's making this a very tricky minefield to walk thru at the moment. Sometimes, as much as the adult wants to really listen to what li'l one is feeling/experiencing, the adult must make her sobriety her number one priority. Right now, it just really feels like there's this huge tug-of-war going on between us and I honestly don't know how best to handle it other than take very small baby steps with li'l one...and not...Read More...

Hi RHC As far as contacting your PT, perhaps begin the phone call by saying you have a PT related question and explain the specifics. And perhaps ask if she read yor email and say that you didnt realise a friendship wasn't possible and you don't want there to be any lingering awkwardness and you appreciate the help she's given. I don't know much about your history but is it possible the relationship you formed with your PT is triggering unresolved issues from the past? You said you have been...Read More...

OMG, CD! Had I known you were gonna buy some, I would have left that last one 4 you. There's none left.Read More...

Living? It seems more like an existence to me while feeling this imprisonment of an emotional abyss.Read More...

Hi, Liese. Thanks again for your perspective on this. Your words match my experience very closely(though my T is female and a mother figure for me). For me, the fantasy is (1) a risk-free escape from difficult realities and (2) "practice" for how it might feel to allow myself to be closer to T in person, in session, or "practice" in allowing myself to even recognize the wish to be closer to T (and eventually, through more practice, closer to people outside of therapy). I am nowhere near the...Read More...

Removed.Read More...

Thank you for taking the time to respond to my post. Jillann I have healthy meals it’s when I shop that I fill my basket with chocolate/cakes/biscuits etc., all to be consumed in a short time, I know it’s wrong when I buy it, don’t enjoy it when I eat it and want to throw up after having it and the guilt is awful; this along with another act when stressed/anxious makes it feel like self- abuse. I am returning to work tomorrow which would ease things during the day. I hate the feelings and...Read More...

Indeed! Fight on, Sir. Fight on.Read More...