Ah no, I never kept a journal Hopeful. It seemed every time I tried to write nausea hit, or I could only write a few lines before brain said, "Thats enough, go and distract please." Brain has kept a pretty good record of the important stuff though.Read More...

(((TAS))) and (((CD))) -thank you. I've heard lots of people here say they don't/can't/have had a really bad experience re: talking to others about something that happened in therapy. I guess it just isn't safe. I was really excited, I really wanted to talk about it. It was a huge relief, T said he felt completely humbled that he had done what he had, then hadn't even realized that it was a big deal. This is a good place. We can talk about it without being minimized. Thank you again.Read More...

although i love the stuff, nay on the kiwi. in the midwest, USA. g'nightRead More...

Kmay it's good to hear things are a bit better. It is scary to be freightened of your own thoughts. I hope this med works out for you. Pdoc upped the dosage of my AD today hoping to get a stronger result. I am still struggling with obsessive ED thoughts. I hoping upping the dose will quiet these thoughts a bit. JillannRead More...

Well, I just found out the Therapist I am supposed to see tomorrow is actually in the same suite as the T I currently see...not sure if it is a good idea to see her...Read More...

((daggers)) that was powerful to read! I hope to get there one day and be truly thankful for the life I've been given. There's a lot of wisdom in your words! Thank you for themRead More...

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Turtle, and all of you above, the biggest hugs ever to you. It is heartbreaking, this kind of pain, and I can only echo what everyone has already said. I have reached a low point in my therapy and it feels like the pain has swallowed me. I just had my 63rd birthday and I have been unravelling this web from my childhood for 9 years. I hope each of you finds the peace, and love, and emotional freedom you so truly deserve. Xoxo bluRead More...

I know you posted this some time ago DGUOM, but I too have struggled for the last 47 years with a Narcissistic mother. I have now had a year of no contact, which has been something I never imagined possible. I don't know if you are aware but there is a forum for daughters of narcissistic mothers, and the support I have received from that forum has been really helpful. Just wanted to pass that on - there is life after narcissistic parents - but I get the thing about boyfriends family...it's...Read More...

I too craved hugs, but felt wooden if I was given one. I would go out of my way to avoid hugs, not because I didn't want one, but because I just didn't get it....what did all these other people get from hugging each other? My T asked after the first ever session if she could give me a hug, and I refused, absolutely no way, I didn't do touch. i knew i craved it though so my T used to send me a 'virtual hug' by text, and i began to ask for them. Eventually though,as I left a session, I got to...Read More...

((anon)) That was so beautifully written! So raw and beautiful. I'm glad you've decided to leave it up because I think your words can really help others. What you're going through and processing sounds really difficult. Just wanted to give you some hugs!Read More...

CD, I know you said you weren't looking for comforting words, but I couldn't let this one go. I honestly believe your therapist does care. But being ethical, he cannot let his own needs or desires enter into your therapy. Therapy needs to be about what you want to do and what you need, so even if its hard from him to not see you or he worries about you, he has to just deal with those feelings and NOT tell you about it so as to not have you take care of him. I abruptly quit on my first T at...Read More...

I know in the past I've been blocked when someone turned off PMs from everyone or almost everyone, not because it had anything to do with me, but just because they weren't feeling safe or comfortable to PM in general. That happened to me just recently, and it turned out to be just an oversight and they forgot to turn things back on. I hope you get it all worked out. (((hugs)))Read More...

Wish I could draw it!Read More...

I want to tell him to keep his stupid boundaries and if I want to wear sunglasses during session, I will damn well do it and he will have to put up with it!Read More...

Just look at Scarzee go.......!!!!Read More...

keep imagining it CD, and it will happen with someone out there.Read More...

Definitely!!Read More...

I would be terrified if a male T picked up my chin without my permission. Especially if you're already triggered by the conversation.. I would imagine that the last thing that would help would be for him to touch you. So, I think it's very important you talk to him about how you feel when he touches you like that. It's very important that you do that, because if he's constantly triggering you with this, you'll never be able to make any progress. ((Hugs)) hang in there.Read More...

River...You are absolutely right...it is not an easy job...and to convey all of those things at the right timing, etc. can be very challenging. Muff...I agree with cutting their prices in half when they have us hooked Sometimes I wonder if the Therapist doesn't get more out of the therapy process than the client... L2F...Absolutely Consultations are needed...and are definitely good if you have some blind spots... I think one of the important things is creating a unique therapy for each...Read More...