I started seeing a new t a few weeks ago. Things seem to be going fine. My mother has become very sick in the time we started and is close to death. The last session was extremely emotional for me as I discussed my mother. I had never cried before in front of him. While I was crying he didn't offer me a tissue. Then all he said was it is ok to struggle. I knew that he had a vacation planned. At the end of the session he ended ubruptly and said have a nice Memorial Day weekend. I felt so hurt...Read More...

mudd, i ran into this article awhile ago and it really spoke to me. it might help explain what's going on in your family dynamics. hang in there during your latest heart-break. i'm thinking about you designated issuesRead More...

Hi RT, She has given me an object to keep from her Sand Tray that I can look at/touch whenever I want. Yes, she does leave a backup resource available to me but, of couse, it's not the same. Unfortunately, due to very early (and serious) childhood attachment trauma, it doesn't take much to be triggered. I know she's trying to build my tolerance to people leaving, but because it's trauma based, it feels the same as it did when it happened. Ikm trying to divert thoughts, but that ain't the...Read More...

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((TAS)) your T did mess up and you are entitled to your anger and panic. My T has pretty firm rules about outside contact. For me, they aren't about not needing him, the lack of contact between sessions helps me to a)ground myself in my real life with my family and b) hold my T as a good object. Earlier on in my journey when I had a lot of trouble with object constancy, the out of session contact helped. But it got to a point where I would contact him by email, phone or text and the short...Read More...

Hi RT. IFS is internal family systems, which is a relatively new-ish kind of therapy. It's been around for about 30 years. I like it in theory, but it's really shame inducing (for me). So whenever she goes down that road, I don't really like it because all the shame gets stirred up and then I leave feeling ashamed. It's basically based on the theory of the multiplicity of the mind...we all have various parts in us. When there's a trauma in our childhoods, some of our parts get stuck and...Read More...

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CD Thank you for the link. I have read it but am rereading it as well I have been doing a lot of rereading of different articles lately - sometimes just to remind myself that things do get better. Thank you and I hope you are doing well.Read More...

i dont think i ever i will ever see another t again, from my previous experience overcoming what happened with him has honestly been the hardest thing i have ever been thru, iv had so many flashbacks and nightmares, i had developed two lifelong health conditions which i believe has been down to the stress of the experience, i think the only way for me to go now is the road that does not involve help off another T, Afterall im sure he wont have given me a second thought, he is just a person,...Read More...

Thanks so much for your thoughts ladies, this helps a lot! No updates of any sort today... I'm waiting on hearing back from a new T re: my insurance and a session this week but.... have not heard back so I'm already scared away. Sigh. *update they just called back!* ((GE)) I have major control issues, it's made therapy... fun. T1 will suggest, probe, put in to context, sometimes she is wrong, right or painfully right (depends on the day). T2 on the other hand will do the literal just...Read More...

My T and I have probably crossed alot of lines. I believe the lines are a bit bendable in some cases.Read More...

Sheesh about your counselor, Scars! Unfortunately it sounds like contacting him would hit a wall again. You could try it, but how would you feel if he reacted the same way he did to your text?? Personally I would feel rejected. But that doesn't mean I could stop myself from contacting him.Read More...

I love that little penguin (well all penguins really) but I never knew they could laugh or whatever that sound is!Read More...

Re: Please don't get drawn into another war of words.Read More...

so sorry for your loss ((TN)) and i hope your T will be a good help to you through this. puppetRead More...

Sorry I didn't respond to anyone sooner, I got this crazy one-hit-wonder of a flu and slept forever. My P suggested some med changes I could do (I just got my generic switched back to the original manufacturer (which they changed again on me unexpectedly) so, I'm sure that will fix it. I don't know how I feel yet on account of being so sick but I hope maybe the past week I've just had some weird flu and am now better... I ended up in the most severe abdominal pain I've ever been in on Friday...Read More...

It's not a very comfortable path is it? And it wasn't a path chosen by me either. But, there you go, such is therapy, and life!Read More...

I don't really know anymore. My T has said that she would rather I call her than hurt myself in any way (ED, self-harm, suicidal action all included here). If it's during a time she's not available (vacations and weekends she is 100% NOT available) then I do whatever else I need to (and have my P and adjunct T as backup). I'd probably be dead for 2 solid minutes before I'd ever call 911 for a medical emergency. There are times I've called my P or Drs on their regular line and been told to...Read More...

This is water: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IzX9IFS732gRead More...

I honestly don't understand how anything on this forum could lead to threatening someone's life. That's pretty scary stuff.Read More...

unless you very strongly suspect that this person you're considering sharing information with could figure out who you are, i wouldn't worry about it. it's a pretty damn big world. OTOH, if you know the approximate locale of said person and know that you're locale was approximate to said-person's locale, that may be a different story. as an example, from a previous post you started, i know you are from the midwest. i am from the midwest. you happen to remind me of somebody. it is highly...Read More...