I feel bad for you that feel squirmy or yucky inside when your name is said. I wish that it would bring you comfort. Whenever my ex-T said my name, it usually made me feel more connected to her. Today I got up the nerve to ask new P what she wanted me to call her, Dr.S or her first name. She said whatever I want is fine with her. She said younger clients often seem to want to call her Dr. but "mature" clients (I guess that means older?) often prefer to be on a first name basis. So maybe...Read More...

I would highly recommend the book Why Zebras Don't Get Ulcers by Robert Sapolsky if you're interested in the mind-body connection and the effects of cumulative stress on the body. It's fascinating and the author is really funny.Read More...

P.S. Didn't try salt water! I might now though, lol.Read More...

I don't!!! I still think the keyboard looked at bit qqqwwwweeerrrttyyy!!!! tbhRead More...

Thanks Poppet and Cat. I am trying the best I can.Read More...

((( Cat ))), that actually helps a lot, thanks so much for sharing your experience and the experience fo your therapist. it helps to normalize what i'm going through, and not feel so freakish.Read More...

Thanks scars09 and catalyst for responding. My T knows about my ED and I contacted my nutritionist to get back on track. I was hospitalized 18 mo ago for very low weight and had to go through re-feeding also. Since then I have gained weight and had stop restricting, but recent painful emotional work w/T triggered my ED to rare its Ugly Head! and I don't feel in control of not restricting and wanting to lose weight. I guess for me it's a way of controlling something when the intense emotional...Read More...

Tas, sometimes I think it is a lost cause! not many people feel like us.Read More...

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Closed Doors you are absolutely right...I do that all the time... SomeDays I am so sorry. Thank you for your insight...I really appreciate it! T.Read More...

So, having read this book all the way through now; I can recommend it totally. Some of the neuroscience is a bit daunting but overall the insight it gives into how critical those early months and years are (both pre natal and ante natal) as regards the love and response we receive (or not as the case may be) from our caregivers is amazingly useful. Found it very calming to read as it makes it quite clear that my feelings or struggles with emotional regulation, are not my fault, and that the...Read More...

Liese & Green Eyes, Thank you both for responding. I'll be back tomorrow once I've thought about what you've both said as I can't do it at the moment. HopefulRead More...

Glad to hear it ended up working out well, and it sounds like it was a great conversation for both of you. Nice work!Read More...

The ultimate loss of control. I never thought of it like that before. Being victimized by the alcohol but that's what it was like for me.Read More...

Thank you poppet. Means a lot...Read More...

I will write more later... Between work meetings right now. But yea sometimes if you are destabilized the priority is management and then maybe going back when it's less intense. As for talking with your T about Sunday... My T is client focused and will not give me answers very often (this was hard for a while because in my trauma I've been told what to do all the time). I will usually explain what you explained then I will ask 'why do you think... Blah blah' then we will explore that...Read More...

Hei Nannabee, just an update. I had my session with T yesterday. I had a really bad week, first angry with T for cancelling and then pacicking that I could not manage the next 6 months with all the unavoidable uncertainty. On Monday however I felt better, looking forward to seeing T and anger gone.I decided I would just get on with my therapy and forget about it. I mean it is so unreasonable to be angry with someone for being sick. But when I got there I found myself just reluctant to say...Read More...

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That's really great HIC! I've been following along your journey so it's nice to hear you had a good, reconnecting session. And you may have given me a push (both in your advice to my post and your words to your own T) to ask my T for more reassurance. You're right, maybe they hold back a little to not come off as condescending. But I think I really need it too! So thanks! Keep us posted!Read More...

Hello, I am studying to be a therapist and one of the things we learn in school is that therapists are encouraged to take pro-bono clients meaning helping those out who could not afford to come. The therapist will weigh each situation out and determine if they are able to provide pro-bono services. It is something they do on an occasional basis and not just for one individual...Hope this makes senseRead More...

I'm not 100% positive, but I really didn't think Ts could charge the client for consultation. That's part of their job, to make sure they are doing no harm to their clients and they are taking necessary steps to provide the best care. It's their ethical obligation, really. My T recently told me she has started going to a consultant every month that has expertise in trauma. She also just got trained in IFS, so I think she is working to be more knowledgeable in the treatment of trauma. Maybe...Read More...

Thanks Liese And yes I would prefer to hear difficult news first hand than through the grapevine. I think the other reasons this has been so hard is that there is a little girl inside who wants the fairy tale happy ever after family. And unfortunately it's also triggered inner shame ( which is exactly how narcs operate) even though I've done nothing wrong.Read More...

Diva: Thanks for sharing your story and your support! It really ebbs and flows. I definitely have moments where I feel so alone and need my T a great deal and others where I feel very strong and know I will survive until my next session. (I like the latter better! I am glad that you felt more empowered and stronger after your break! BLT: Thanks so much for the recommendation and I will check them out!Read More...