Thanks Meta, and LOL, Starry. That is a funny story AND it made me feel betterRead More...

BLT, Outsider, Leise, Thank youRead More...

awww ((( MMM ))) your nice wishes mean a laot to me. no, i'm currently not in therapy thanks to the ever-declining health care benefits. such is life. it sounds like you understand what's going on, which will benefit you greatly, i hope. yeah, i think it's vitally important to not beat oneself up for reacting to situations that trigger past experiences. easy enough to say, i know. good luck to you MMM, and i hope you come around more often. but if you don't, that's okay too.Read More...

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I am starting to feel things... Anxiety and stress mostly, but some happiness too. Even if they are hard things to feel, gosh anything is better than numb. ((((Anthenacus))) (((everybody))) Thanks for being with me through it. All T did was play Chutes and Ladders with Boo and give me a safe place to sit and interact with them, but I guess just having a safe place to go and making it through the day and getting some stuff done was enough to unlock things a little bit. At least if I can feel,...Read More...

Hi TN and others, Thank you for your responses and for checking on me! On Christmas Eve I ended up coming down with a bad cold, so I know that was part of my bad mood the day before. I just didn't know it at the time. My holiday break was full of trying to survive a virus, a break up, and being lonely on New Year's Eve and New Year's Day. I cried for several days, stayed in the house, cleaned, talked, and sang to three cats (I'm cat sitting). A few days ago I just decided that I had enough...Read More...

Hi, It is good to hear from you. That is something i always wanted to do! I am sorry to hear about your Therapist and I hope that you find that click and learn a lot more I love the church choir(whatever i have seen in the movies, i hope i see it for real someday). Thats lovely Thank you for sharingRead More...

Woah- Just re-read this thread before turning in and I didn't mean specifically that DF turned a member away. I think we all know DF wouldn't tell someone they couldn't get help here. Totally my bad. I meant it was sad to see a member ask for help and not receive it. Sorry about that draggs! LilliesRead More...

Hi, TAS. I wholeheartedly agree with CD...and your second thoughts. Hang in there. I haven't commented on any of your posts, but I've read many of them. I completely get the constant tendency to flight. So many of us do. Keep holding on. Your T sounds solid and able to take all that you give him. That is golden.Read More...

Thank you Closed Doors! Definitely going to take a look at that article T.Read More...

Hello All, I think this idea that we are "too much" stems from a deep shame we seems to lug around in our lives. Once the shame is able to be lifted from us then we may actually value ourselves and expect others to value us. When our T's say nice things to us that is who we really are..think about it just coming for therapy shows us that we care enough about ourselves to get help...I know my T thinks that in itself gives me value...Our T's see us without the lens of shame....and by doing so...Read More...

AV - Thanks for that link. I really enjoyed Smail's article and drilled down to read more Of his opinions about therapy. Its like the Emporers New Clothes. Like you, B2W, I think its strange or suspicious that these type articles and opinions aren't very visible. Then we think we are alone and crazy or wrong to think that way! B2W - thanks for bringing this topic up! AG - Thanks for your link as well. It is reassuring and helpful. I think both articles were saying the same thing. But "what...Read More...

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Oh, did a quick search on attachment styles and psychosis and it appears that it's not what I was thinking. It sounds like they are thinking that there is a relationship between psychosis and an insecure attachment style, particularly a dismissive style. I don't know why that style in particular. ???Read More...

Thanks you guys! It's been a difficult year.Read More...

I understand what you're feeling because I also sent a letter to my exP about 6 months after termination. It was a card I picked up while on a vacation and I only wrote a very brief, happy message, letting him know I was doing well. When I sent it, I felt like I just wanted to share this information with him, but as time passed and I got no response, it really began to bother me. I would ask myself over and over, just how much effort would a response require, especially when he had promised...Read More...

Happy New Year, everybody. Blessed to know you guys another year.Read More...

((((Poppet)))) and ((((others)))) I loathe it also and usually stay home alone, walk boydog, cook us a roast and, sorry people, drink too much to dull feelings!!! It saddens me that so many of you feel the same. xxRead More...

Oh Katiedid, that is so beautiful and very a propo.Read More...

Oh fishy I must be a mutant, I can do it!!!!!Read More...

He already has a funny hairdo, can't any funnier that!!!! K is for Kick ass!!!Read More...

T gave me that poem last year I have it framedRead More...

bluesky, my T and I had this discussion recently. I was telling her something I thought most people would think badly of and I thought she would also. She told me that T's are trained to have a filter and that she is generally looking for things beyond the obvious. She knows more about me than anybody in my life and she keeps letting me come back, lol. I think once you form an attachment with a T, this issue sort of dissolves. Don't let this dissuade you from entering therapy, if you feel it...Read More...