Oh cool. Quell. I put it down for a while but have to get back to it. Someone gave the book to my H. Otherwise I never would have come across it.Read More...

HIC - Thank you. Yes, I agree with everything you said. Now its just actually getting up the courage to talk to her about it....Read More...

No worries about bumping threads and all that guilt stuff , if you can't come here and talk about how you're doing without having to pay some kind of quid pro quo dues in terms of posting replies, then the forum is not the place I think it to be. Which is a pretty stupid and convoluted way of saying I'm glad you did post to say how you are doing and that I'm 100% sure no-one is thinking badly of you for not rushing around the place posting madly on every other thread going! I am sorry though...Read More...

Lovely story of your time with your T. Beautiful.Read More...

LOL Beebs, you crack me up sometimes. Well I think I get what you mean with it being ok that YOU know this about how you feel, but it's not for his ears. I could be taking you too seriously here, but I immediately thought of this situation where you tell someone how positive they make you feel and how grateful you are to them for all sorts of things and then whammo suddenly they pull the rug - murphy's law type of scenario - the moment you let them know you appreciate them is the moment they...Read More...

Hey there SD, did you manage to talk to your T about the art therapy? I find it interesting that she suggested art therapy to you, but as something you go off and do on your own. I like the suggestions the others on this thread have given (I also really liked the link to art journalling, gave me some ideas of my own.) Thought I'd chip in because I did a stint with an art therapist once, years ago. We did things like make and play with puppets (obvious candidates to play out theatrically...Read More...

Very sweet, Granite.Read More...

Granite - This was the very reason that I told T that I needed twice a week. We had started getting into some pretty traumatic stuff and I shared with her that after session, it is so incredibly hard for me b/c I have to just sit with the emotions by myself and sometimes I swear, it feels like it will kill me. We did go to two sessions a week but she also allows contact whenever I need it b/c of what I shared with her. I think you need to tell T how you feel about that - while she may not...Read More...

thanks for all your responses. LL,i'm only asking because 1: it does fascinate me and 2: T briefly mentioned it in our last session. i have to say, i fantisize other clients coming in and lying on the couch, er, my couch. i don't know if i could ever have that amount of trust and comfort. i like to think i could, but realistically i don't think i could. my T does interpersonal technique along with psychodynamic and psychoanalytic, so it's not out of the realm of his expertise. frog, i like...Read More...

Draggers & Avoidant, Glad to hear she and her family are ok. LL, It does seem like a "Liese" thing. I don't know how the stuff gets resolved without re-creating lots of pain. If I ever figure out that part I'll let you know LOL!Read More...

Dragonfly - Yes, thank you. And by the way, thank you very much for your explanation too. I actually do get it now lol. And I really like what I read about "Unconditional Positive Regard"...Im going to practice that with my kids instead of losing my patience!Read More...

Thanks for checking, Draggers! I've been in tears on and off mainly because for one of my classes I'm required to read about CSA, SA, other childhood abuse, and domestic violence/abuse. It's very triggering. I suppose it doesn't help that I have PMS, nightmares, some minor panic attacks and don't have another T just yet. I'm calling tomorrow to find a new T. On a good note...I'm probably jinxing this...my ex husband hasn't been too bad lately. Usually he harasses me by e-mail, phone or in...Read More...

(((Granite))) - Thank you. T says I am courageous too. I don't feel that way...AT ALL. But thank you (((Frog))) & (((LL))) & (((B2W))) - thank you so much for the support.Read More...

Kashley, Thank you for the tips! I will have to give some of that a try. I do the same thing about picturing my notes on the page or picturing where it said such and such in a book in order to get the answer. One of my problems was I was trying to picture the notes and all I could picture was the heading and nothing below (blank page in my head). I panicked and wrote only a paragraph instead of an essay because nothing was coming to my head. Also, the mult. choice questions seemed like a...Read More...

Granite, I'm really proud of you! You were so brave to go. That was an excellent session too. Thanks for sharing. Your T seems like she was there for you a lot more this time and was so caring. ~D.Read More...

I am really late to this but sorry to hear that you have stepped down. I wish you all the best and hope it goes well with T school. ButterflyRead More...

Thanks folks...Read More...

((((Garanite1)))), sorry to hear you`re so angry and confused about all this. Fwiw I think it will be a good idea to go see your T and talk this through with her - at least one more time. You said yourself you know it`s the right thing to do, so stick to that. You will figure out what to do. Quitting in this "state" sounds more harmful than helpful, to me anyway. Your T holding on to you and not letting you go that easaly tells me she cares about you and won`t give up on you, like you...Read More...

Ang - I can relate to that. Especially the ones that I didn't tell a single soul until I told T. And for me, its b/c I can't remember the entire trauma. Only pieces. So it makes me feel like it's not real, or like I made it up b/c I can't understand why only small peices of it pop in my head at a time. T says b/c it was stuffed so deep inside of me for so long, that it can feel like it's not real when it finally comes out. Or b/c I dissociated when it happened so I can't remember all of it.Read More...

Well starlight sounds like it all worked out in the end. Its great when you can get the words out to express fear about yout T taking off someday and once the matter has been talked about their is nearley always a nice ray off light comming from the result. NDRead More...

I'm comfortable with T, but not with some of or topics, so for me it just depends on what we're discussing. I'm more comfortable discussing things where I don't fear judgement. As compassionate as he normally is, I once started telling him the story I just posted in Intimate issues, and I immediately felt judged by something he said. I'm sure he didn't mean it as it came out, but I think he let his T-persona down for a minute and I wish he hadn't. So in general, it depends on the session,...Read More...

Nigeldaniel... So glad you got together with your old T. Isn't it funny how things happen to kind of tell us what we need to do? Frog...I just felt like dying when I saw him...I was thinking, "This CAN NOT be happening!" If I had thought he hadn't knew I had seen him...I would have got out of there as fast as I could. Seeing that he was sitting by the entrance and only one way out...I would have had to walk right by him...ugh. j Thanks for your replies, each of you. I appreciate it! T.Read More...

I found this really helpful Liese and it sent me off onto a few hours research and watching Youtubes of Object Relation Theory - I think I found out a few answers about myself and so I emailed the links off to T. SomedaysRead More...

Thank you so much to everyone for your responses. (((Somedays))) - Thank you. For making me feel less alone (((Closed Doors))) - Oh man...you explained exactly what I have been feeling. I couldn't have said it better. It's awful! My T said last session that she doesn't ever want me to feel like she let me down. And that she is there for as long as I need her, but that one day I won't need her as much but that is up to me...I let her know when that time comes. I was thinking in my head...Read More...

Hey there. I try to keep in mind the slogan "one day at a time" and sometimes it even gets broken down into one hour at a time. We are our harshest critics, or so the saying goes...Read More...