Has anyone ever been aware of hate feelings for their T? I love my T but lately I've been aware of hate feelings I have for her as well and I'm soo ashamed of them. Yesterday, we(my T and I ) had a discussion about attachment and how my competition with my twin brother for a position in my family as well as my desire to become him (to feel safe) became a model for how I attach now...anyway, after the discussion I was aware of all of these angry/hate feelings I was harboring for my T and I HATE IT...I think I feel in competition with my T or something!...and I feel hatred both for her and myself for having these feelings!! I can't stand myself now...what kind of a person am I? I love my T so much and she has done so much for me and now I hate her?! Has anyone experienced this? I'm desperately in need of feedback on this one!!! Also, I'm thinking that my androgenous look and my childlike ways are a way of avoiding/denying the competition/hate feelings I have for people in general....has anyone experienced any or all of the above? I'm in desperate need of feedback on this one! Thank you all for your time, mlc
Has anyone ever been aware of hate feelings for their T? I love my T but lately I've been aware of hate feelings I have for her as well and I'm soo ashamed of them. Yesterday, we(my T and I ) had a discussion about attachment and how my competition with my twin brother for a position in my family as well as my desire to become him (to feel safe) became a model for how I attach now...anyway, after the discussion I was aware of all of these angry/hate feelings I was harboring for my T and I HATE IT...I think I feel in competition with my T or something!...and I feel hatred both for her and myself for having these feelings!! I can't stand myself now...what kind of a person am I? I love my T so much and she has done so much for me and now I hate her?! Has anyone experienced this? I'm desperately in need of feedback on this one!!! Also, I'm thinking that my androgenous look and my childlike ways are a way of avoiding/denying the competition/hate feelings I have for people in general....has anyone experienced any or all of the above? I'm in desperate need of feedback on this one! Thank you all for your time, mlc
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